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Ashes
23 July 2009 @ 03:15 pm
Finally finished this image for Rachel, sowie for the long wait D;. > Rikuo

Still working on Shelli's sorry for the long wait *Shot*

Oh! On my last post ranting, haha sorry about that XD. I figured out what I'm going to do and feel a lot better for it :3

I am going to UNCA. If I can't get in the spring semester I'll be going the fall semester after <3.

Chuwah ~
 
 
Ashes
18 June 2009 @ 09:58 am
Updates for the sake of updating :3

School Updates:

I'm taking summer classes ToT. Somehow I seem to me more busy this semester then I was last semester D;. It's all good though rather get it done now :3.
I found out that if I hadn't failed one stupid lousy college Algebra class then I would have been able to get my Art Associates Degree this spring D; Because of that I have to retake that class in the fall D;.
Good thing is: If I pass that class (and I intend to! >3) I will finally graduate from BRCC in the Fall! *Is so incredibly happy about this!!!*

I'm tentatively planning to enroll in UNCA for their spring semester, depending on finances (i.e. If I can afford to go etc.).
If I'm able (If my art associates degree will transfer), I would like to go for a multimedia & sciences B.A. degree. Everyone is telling me though that if I do this it's simply a pipe dream and I'll never be able to get a real job out of it. This makes me nervous and unsure of what to do D; Truthfully though if finances were not an issue this is what I would like to do no matter what D;

I say that yet I'm tired of school, really tired of it! I'm 22 I should be done by now, but I'm not and it sucks D;. The idea of continuing on for another 2 years at least makes me sad D;. I hope ultimately that I can get that dream job I have been wanting since I was young D;. Maybe everyone is right and it's all just pipe dreams and I should just give up and apply for some manager position and some random retail store D;.

I . Dunno . . . D; Does going for a multimedia and sciences B.A. degree sound like an unrealistic dream? I'm really good at making bad decisions so I want to be fully sure before I commit this time. I don't want to waste anymore of my life. D; I'm really tired of being poor to D;

Phew:

Sorry guys I needed to get that off my chest, hopefully I'll feel a bit better now : D. I have alot of thinking I need to do :3

Computer Updates:

My computer is a piece of crap! It barely runs and when it does it shuts itself off randomly every ten seconds.
This is driving me crazy because I want to progress in my art and ultimately reach my goal of having a professional style so people would be interested in commissioning from me. I should be making money of this art if it's what I want to do. So now I'm going to take it seriously.
It's hard to do something seriously though with a broken computer. So I'm saving up, which isn't easy for me to do when I have so many bills I have to pay for. D;
Ultimately I want a macbook pro D; Perhaps maybe another pipe dream . . . I dunno why I have to be like this? With my unrealistic dreams D;. Why couldn't I have been satisfied to be in some sort of realistic profession that makes money D;.
Anyways soon, if this computer allows it, I would like to start selling my art. I could use this money to buy a new computer D;
So I need to be more serious with my art!!!

Again:

Again I apologize for ranting, I have no one else to talk to. Well no one else to talk to who wouldn't put me down completely D; and I'm really scared about my future, really scared. Typing this out will hopefully make me feel better :3.
 
 
Current Mood: scaredscared
 
 
Ashes
19 April 2009 @ 12:23 pm
Ashley Status:

I need more freee time and a new computer plox? T_T

. . can't . . . get . . . anything . . done D;
 
 
Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: The White Tie Affair - The Letdown
 
 
Ashes
17 March 2009 @ 10:28 am
Happy Birthday Rachel <333

Hope it's your best one yet >O< Doesn't it suck though that we are turning 22? XD

I'll draw ya a b'day pic if ya want just post a reference /ho
 
 
Current Location: School
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: None
 
 
Ashes
29 December 2008 @ 11:34 pm
This xmas was seriously the best xmas I've ever had ! <33

It's so nice just having the "Real" family at home and not one of my mom's current husbands/boyfriends >.> Though my sister's fiance was there but he's cool so I don't mind so much about him xp.

I got a nice keyboard O.O I really wasn't expecting one but my mom was all like you've always wanted to play the piano right? So now I'm gonna learn ! Ish so excited :3. I also got an Ipod Nano which I have been asking for, for like three Christmases now and I got Rock Band! But it's the one for playstation three and I only have a playstation 2 D; When I asked mum for the receipt to exchange it she was all like no I'm going to buy you a playstation 3 someday soon so be patient T_T I'm impatient though XD

Started on everyone's xmas pic gifts XD yesh working on them all at the same time @_@. Hopefully I will have them done soon :3

I hope everyone had a good xmas! Luv ya alls!
 
 
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Without you I'm nothing - Placebo
 
 
 
Ashes
21 December 2008 @ 12:39 am
I somehow by some miracle managed to pass all my classes this semester >3

Getting closer to that AA degree <333

Annnnnnnds last call: Anyone on my f'list if they want a xmas pick just leave me a ref :3 It'll probably be after xmas now XD But ahwell :3

Luffs ~
 
 
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: Matilda O.o
 
 
Ashes
13 December 2008 @ 09:27 pm
Uugh I'm sooo sick right now x.x

Anyways ! I've been so busy I haven't updated :3

According to my calculations and if they offer the few classes I need in the next two semesters I can get my AA degree by next fall yay :3

Xmas gifts :3

I really really wants to gives xmas gifts buts I don't have much monies D; I know I always promise art and don't deliver it but this time I promise to you I will deliver it >3

So give me refs of what you want me to draw :3 Anyone on my flist can ask whether I know you well or not XD. Your gift art may just be a sketch but I will definitely draw for you :3. I'm in an art motivational mood and I'm ready and raring to go :3

Gives you an art sample of my latest work >>>> ED <33 &'s Gift Art

These are secret santa pics that I'm not supposed to show to the public but I doubt anyone of these people are gonna see this journal entry XD

So just post references or just character names and I'll give ya a pic :3

Pics to get done: (List so I don't forget XD)

Secret Santa Art 1: Complete
Secret Santa Art 2: Complete
Secret Santa Art 3: Complete
Secret Santa Art 4: Complete
Secret Santa Art 5: Complete
Nicole: In Process
Shelli: Not Started
Random Gaia Commission: Not Started
Mallie: Not Started

Happy Early X'mas to you guys if I don't here from you till then ! Hope you have a great one and get everything you could possibly want :3 And good luck to you college kids who are cramming for your finals :3 Cause I'm most certainly cramming right now XD
 
 
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: CSI
 
 
Ashes
07 October 2008 @ 12:57 pm
I . . . dropped . . . my . . . phone . . . in . . . the . . . toilet DDD;

WHY!?

T________T
 
 
Ashes
18 September 2008 @ 09:16 pm
Yaaay my tablet came :3

This one is never gonna break >3
 
 
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Avenged sevenfold
 
 
Ashes
04 September 2008 @ 11:15 pm
My tablet broke once again D;

*Whines*
 
 
Current Mood: sadsad